If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.: August 2006

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We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.
It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

PROFILE

Name: Ting
Age: 21
D.O.B: 5th August

.SHOUT

.PARTIES

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
May 2009

.FRIENDS

Edit-Me
<>Eve
Quan Ge
Rouxin
bossini wee wee
melisa JR
Helena
Lao Meow
Jielin
Qiaolin
A.B.B.

.CREDITS

.SYNDICATE

Saturday, August 19, 2006

do u mind? I need a peace of mind over here.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Quitting is not an option because we're blood warriors.

Blood warriors don't quit.

We go to war because we have a blood covenant with our Commander in Chief

good one.

Watched THE BREAK UP with Ben on Friday..

hmm.. its quite ok.. Basically depicts the intense emotion between the couple in the process of and after the break up.. u noe, showing how they play mind game on each other, which sometimes can be very funny. The highlight is the actress(of cos). She's so pretty! Gee.. o, and the ending isn't something I would have quite expected.. as in, it's not the typical Hollywood movie that u would have expected. Im not sure if its worth the money to watch for 7 or 9.50bucks, but it's definitely not the typical Hollywood comedy. or is it even a comedy? anyway, i find it quite worthwhile cos my ticket only costs S$2.20!! cool yar? (gotten where I watched from?). moreover its Ben who paid for them. hey thanks for the breakfast n movie treat! :)

We had breakfast at Secret Receipt, Ben had his stir-fried japanese soba.. ironic. and I had my tom yam spaghetti. after tt, we shared a classic cheese cake and order another 4brownies for take away. the food is quite nice.. but the cheesecake's fantastic! the cream on the cake is so rich. and soft sponge cake with abundance of thick cheese cream in between give an amazingly complex taste. one word. AMAZING. I was pretty surprise. cos the cake looks simple, i mean, it looks like its suppose to be light tasting. but it turned out to be very sweet, very rich and strong tasting. i was trying to figure wat's the ingredient, but as i was saying, the taste is too complex for me to figure out. the only thing i detected was cheese. heehee.

and guess wat? all for tt, it only costs S$20plus. man, I'll sure go back again. and Ben, it will be my treat this time round. (hopefully) :D

am provoked to move after reading an old fren's blog.. as in. its a healthy kinda provoke. am provoked to do something. to move on. n i need more provoking pple ard me. I could hardly find any of such pple, and i do mean HARDLY. in fact, to be extact, there's none. suddenly think of the song, 'Dare you to move'. Please dare me to move.

PLEASE.

why everytime

when i try, someone got to mock?

worse still, u ignored. friend or foe? I cant tell. .anymore.

im dying to hear your comforting words, tt this is just a nightmare fading away.

but reality has hit me hard, that u will nv come to save.

i tot i can rest in ur blossom, only to realise reality can be that gruesome.

where have u been all this time? ur indifference have taught me much.

friends help you to grow, others force you to know how to grow without them.

thank you for such valuable lessons, they r painful nonetheless.

once again, thank you.

welcome to resistance.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

More Brain Stuff . . . From Cambridge University

O lny srmat poelpe can raed tihs. cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was

rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde

Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is

taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll

raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef,

but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if

gee~

i have such a great sense of achievement.. I finally noe how to link pple!!! :D

wouldnt be linking all at one goal though.. lazy.. lol

i did a rather cool test today tt proves tt im quite a genius :) :

Count every " F" in the following text:

FINISHED FILES ARE THE RE

SULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTI

FIC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS...

HOW MANY ? WRONG, THERE ARE 6 -- no joke. READ IT AGAIN ! Really, go Back and Try to find the 6 F's before you scroll down.

The reasoning behind is tt The brain cannot process "OF".

Incredible or what? Go back and look again!!

Anyone who counts all 6 "F's" on the first go is a genius.

Three is normal, four is quite rare.

well, i counted 4 the 1st time.. so i guess im a rare gem?

"The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when one contemplates the mysteries of eternity... Never lose a holy curiosity."

-Eintein-

Thursday, August 10, 2006

went to New York New York with Rou today.. hmm the food was ok.. (forgot to take a picture of them)..

the seafood pasta: 3.2/5

its quite nice.. cos i like heavy tasting food.. but this one leaves a stench in ur mouth, it tastes like it has been soaked in garlic for 3days.

fried mars bar with ice cream: o.4/5

absolute flop! the mars bar is totally disappointing. taste like rotten caramel banana fritter or something like tt.. nothing special. it's like.. erm.. jus NORMAL mars bar. :\

service: -6.2/5

hey, their service sux big time. i tot Cartel was quite bad already, they r worse. who needs to ask permission for where we can sit? its not like full house. n we waited for 25mins for our pasta and another 20mins for the fried mars bar. n the waiter/ress dun seem very friendly n they all look like they r rookies in this line. the only thing tt is fast is the billing.

enviroment: 3.7/5

wanted to give 4.2 but the crew spoilt the image of the cafe so deduct 0.5. yar.. frankly, i like the enviroment.. jus tt u appear a bit 'expose' and vulnerable at the door.. not too suitable, sometimes, for eye catching pple like me.. muAHAHAHA. eh, lax, i was joking. anyway, cant believe jus sitting there for an hour i can bump into a truck of pple.. *pause* k la, I exaggerated. i mean, at least 5 pple i know.. wait a minute.. erm.. maybe.. erm, it was bcos of my hair tt they recognise its me? no wonder la -_-. yea.. leonard n charlotte the underworld couple saw me.. and the freaky Joseph too. hey he's weird: u were jus outside cant u walk in? dun have to call me yar? anyway, i saw another few familar pple.

yar.. though its not like a happening meeting, but its good to see old frens again. had quite a good time with rou yesterday. pple move from glory to glory. we move from resturant to resturant.. *laughing hard*

guess wat? we move fr newyork2 to Carl's Junior for beef fries. well, i still enjoy myself. i mean, it's Rou, the all time hyper n friendly her, not like some weirdos who i cant clique with.. hmm.. i kinda miss the AJI pple.. esp when Quan ge was ard with his ultimate lame jokes. when can we meet again? :D i really miss those time..

and.. its Rou Xin's birthday tml!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROU!!!!

wish u well in everything u do. hey, ur one of the most encouraging person i noe( though u maybe too straight forward at times, haha). love toking to u cos u maybe very funny sometimes, n u noe how to comfort n encourage. n i like ur frankness. Cheers to u! :)

though i may not be ur closest or best frend.. but i will always want to be ur fren, be someone who can be there for u, jus like how u can be there for me.

in a few words, ur a great friend!

once again, happy BIRDae and thank God for u! :D

wat am i doing here at 3am in the morning?

i dunno.. i only know tt i wanna vent my frustration at somebody. since i cant throw it at pple, this is only other alternative..

read a loser's blog. totally loser..

u r simply psychotic lump.. hey, u dun even noe u r sick! dead sick alright?!

well.. at least someone else's comment kinda make me feel better.. its not like, u noe, inspiring..

but its jus express all my felt.. yea.. as pple change, claiming more success, climb higher.. sometimes, dunno whether is a conscious decision or wat, they be less sensitive, less understanding.. in fact, indifference of the events gg on among the 'common' pple. wat's wrong wif u, sickening hypocrite. SICK. bl**dly SICK. they jus make me wonder am i on the right planet? can end times be ever 'later'.. y? jus bcos u r more 'abled' or.. more 'favoured'.. u have such bl**dy rights? I feel so sick even jus to sit beside u.. the world change, pple change, n u change. changed to be more gross than ever. stop acting like u noe it all.. yea, i changed too.. my opinion of u changed.. thks to u, the world seems to appear a little darker to me now. but thks God.. some believes tt i've been holding on to havent change. Im convicted to not be a jacka*s like u! thk God tt I can still see and RESPONSE to little things in life.. u disappoint me TOTALLY. TOTALLY. things will nv be the same again. trust me. n stop giving me stupid excuses. Im NOT blind. ya rite.. u're always have ur excuses for wat ur doing.. great. no worries. do watever u wan. dun ever need to explain anymore. u use the same excuse anyway. n did u realise tt they r picking this up from u? watever.. its none of my business.. ok.. i'll stop my ranting here.

well, coincidentally, i watched 'I am Sam' yesterday, which exactly portrays wat i feel of certain pple..some pple( U n I know of some) r like the idiotic blad headed lawyer who tries to know wat they think they know, not realising tt sometimes they can be much more retarded than pple like Sam. he know wat is love and he demonstrates it in his simple ways. he know wat to be a true fren. can u even understd wat's love? wat 's the true meaning of frens? I rather be retarded than be a bald headed j*****s lawyer.

i admit tt i dun really think i can be the best kinda of fren u can ever find. but im surely one who try my best and i mean it. the truth is, i havent found many who share the same definition of 'friendship' with me. hmm, for some, I tot u were. but u were never there for me. SHUT UP. dun explain. jus prove it to me.

hey, i swear i'll stop my ranting right at this moment. :D

anyway, i really wanna go fishing!!! i want to fish~~~

desperate for new challenges

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

heard some catchies today..

' Hope comes against all logic and against all experiences'

-desperate housewives-

'She's all fun, he's no fun. She completes him.'

-grabbed fr fren's blog, and slightly modified by me-

How inspiring~ Dun you think so? :)

it did kinda cheer me up a little.

I was kinda upset today cos i wasted a whole morning sleeping! I woke up at 2pm! sux.. dun be envious of me, Im not proud of it. I dun enjoy such slacking life(esp. for such long period of time!)

I need a job. I need to feel useful.

wat's worse, I missed my fav. Oprah show!

You noe, I cried for almost every show.. cos Oprah nv fail to do anything that inspires and change pple's live. Rock on babe!

sadly, I got to miss the show tml too :'(

anyway, mum jus told me that somebody's willing to lend me 20k to study but she's not willing to tell me who.. I wonder why is she so secretive.. still.. I need another 37k to pay my entire skool fee! I still have to go on loan.. hais.. Im desperate.. REAL DESPERATE to go back to skool.. it may sound freaky to some.. but I love to study. I so much wanted to. Hopefully everything will go on more smoothly from now.. I cant handle anymore hi-cups.

hmm.. seriously considering to learn bike, alex's say biking to skool is cheaper than taking bus.. its a dangerously luring option.

but 1st, got to clear that disgusting basic theory test.. if anyone of u failed more than 6times for this idoitic test, do look up for me.. your mishap will comfort me greatly.. muahaha!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Im feeling so sooooo crappy.

Friday, August 04, 2006

if Job is alive, he would be my best friend.

and i shall be called Job-dess or something like tt..

U noe something.. words do have power.. never undermine the power of words, I experienced it myself..

Sometime ago (in fact its some years back), there's this somebody who spoke a statement into my life.. jus ONE statement, and I swear it changed my life there forth.. it is the greatest and most victorious turning point of my life.. then sometime later, the same somebody said something to me again which is enough to make me make a slight turn in life. Those words crushed my spirit.

You mistaken me. And it hurts.

it really took me some effort to get back in shape, and its not easy.

but thank God. no matter how wrong the accusations are, how bad the trails are, they have an expiry date. the only little problem is that i dunno when's the expiry date.

so i'll jus wait. :)

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poor dad, its his birthday on the 2nd august, and nobody wished him happy birthday. and he wasnt the usual him. in the past, he will thick skinnedly claimed his birthday greetings from all of us. but not this yr. he quietly prepare dinner for all of us. i felt so guilty. i wanted to but didnt have the courage cos even my mum was indifference to the fact tt it was his birthday. to be frank, im angry wif all of them: my mum, sisters and me. its her husband's birthday. its their dad's birthday. and its my dad's birthday! wat's wrong wif everyone. i wont mind if its for my birthday, seriously. but i noe tt my dad was sad. actually wanted to bring him to Cartel for st. louis pork rib. i know he will like it. but i didnt noe he's cooking dinner!

sad.

im a bad daugther. :'(

well.. i did try to amend.. i went down to buy some roasted duck and pork meat, and some mini cornettos!(its on offer! buy1 for 1 :D). I hope tt he realises tt it was my awkard way of saying 'happy birthday'.

hmm.. i still regret tt i didnt do a proper celebration for him.

sorry dad.

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Im depress! Im still available.. still jobless i mean!

can some kind soul pls donate some money to me. Im desperate man!

hey, im really not as strong as wat u think of me.. im so weak! there r somethings that i dun seem to have a breakthru in, and i really think its a serious problem. i mean it this SERIOUS. it's paralysing many other areas of my life.. Lord, tell me wat to do.. i m dead helpless.. I need someone who noes wat to do.

my life is in a mess.. somebody clean it for me.

to mr pukka the naggy old man: hey, not tt i dun wan to run with u.. but i wanna run in the morning not in weird afternoons! n definitely not in werid forest with monkeys and unidentified men hiding dunno where, I dun wanna be the next victim tt appears on Straits Time! I wanna run at the mini comfortable rat race near my place :) if u dun mind den i wont mind running wif u.

but warning: do not nag at me when running! muahaha!

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its getting out of hands. how shld i break this news to u?

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Man...! I love Oprah! She's so cool..!

Alrites, I have decided, I'll be the next Oprah wanna be.

I mean.. look at her! She's so encouraging, so generous, so charamastic, so cool, so sophisicated(i mean her hair), and so sexy( i dunno y i say this but i will say it anyway).

WAT? U r asking me who is her? R u sure u dunno who is she????? o my o my o o o o MY!!!!

I think u shld jus stare at THIS SCREEN, yea, right there.. aim ur forehead right at the screen and start banging.. make sure there's blood alrite.. if u can break ur skull better.. then chances of u dying will increase.

U live on mountain all these yrs??

Alrite.. nvm, mountain tortoise..

ANyway, I LOVEEEEE Oprah.. can u believe it.. she gives cars away in her show like.. like.. hmm.. toilet paper?? man.. i wonder where she get all her sources.. maybe she's a good fren of Bill gates. I shld go n find her someday. Anyway.. OPRAH POWER.. ROCKS ALL THE WAY.

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-some random tots-

it has been quite a good day, I have make a new fren and recieved some mistaken birthday greetings.. lousy friendster system. anyway, I still appcreciate those who have sent their greetings.. thks peez! hey, i really wanna burn some fats but nobody wanna go running wif me~~ :'( and i wanna eat Pan Fried LIngunie now. o.. im thinking of K box now.. n NYDC!!! I LOVE the meatball spagetti! Rockx man! e mud pie too.. wu la la~~

when will i have the chance to climb Himalaya? I really want to climb it one day k.. o, "sucks"hub sux big time.. BIG TIME.. how can my phone bill be 170bucks, have i been toking to polar bears in south pole? DUH.. Im gonna burn down their office man.. lousy cheats.. if u wan cheat like 50cents or 1dollar la.. dun be so dumb can.. u think i wont notice? this might work on paris hilton but not me! Im not a bimbo!! hey, its not $1.70.. its one hundred and seventy bucks!! i will be more than willing to pay u if its hellnotes tt u r asking from me-. u r so DEAD, beady green capterpillar loser company! even ur wireless service is as hay wired! Cheers for ur downfall!

told u its random :)