If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.: September 2006

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We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.
It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

PROFILE

Name: Ting
Age: 21
D.O.B: 5th August

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

tsk tsk.. hais.. how dumb can i get..

precious lessons are often painful.. hey, u noe wat, if u wan to do something nasty, make sure u do clean up the mess.. leave no residue.. regret regret.. now got to clean up bigger mess.. hmm.. how should i start cleaning? may be i shld jus leave ignore it..

*bang myself against the wall*

anyway, it has been quite a good day again.. didnt study much despite of tml's NTR exam.. but i did have some fun.. cam whoring again.. haha!

o.. ANYWAY, si tu pi helena tries to trick me again.. hais.. I almost got trick, thk God im smart :D

not gg to believe her anymore xia.. lol

abby tried too.. but she's al lousy actress.. haha!

abby, u loser la.. cant trick anybody but GREY GE nia...

muahaha

hey, im kinda mean yar? hah

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

o.. u noe wat.. i really love the guys in uni of buffalo.. erm.. i mean.. i really appreciates these wonderful guys.. the guys (at least in my course) are all such gentlemen.. like sam and chris.. yar.. chris is so nice.. always lend me anyway i ask for willing and he gave me aride jus now.. and u noe wat? his car is SOOO coooll.. stylo milo xia.. can seat 10pple xia(i think)! and he didnt mind the place i was gg is ulu (btw, he's not familar with the route of singapore, newbie here).. so generous of him.. and sam of course.. always pai sei to let me buy stuff for me.. cos he surely wont accept my money.. haha.. nowadays, its very hard to find such nice guys le..
and of cos the nice ladys.. all the beaux and bimbos :x.. o... im DEFINITELY not toking bot meow and jielin.. yar.. its NOT u.. dun worry.. HAA!! well.. they're fun xia.. with lao za bo, abby and ee teng of cos.. :) we're jus doing crazy stuff everyday! love u guys(though u all always bully)

come to think of it.. y am i the one who is always bullied?? man.. is it my genes or wat? or is it karma? haha.. watever

i jus wish life could be easier..

ahhh!!!!! my heart is screaming..

i would rather let physical pain replace this emotion and mental agony.

but.. it can nv happen.. i know.

cos i tried very long time ago.

BUT STILL

in the midst of all these..

I WANNA THANK GOD FOR MANY THINGS

lalalalalalalal!!!!

I can dance all night xia..

ho ho ho.. sorry tt im a little eccentric now.. which i know some will say... 'no, tt's the normal u isnt?' -_- WATEVER

anyway, im happy when im thinking of all the fun frens i have.. so cool

we were crazy today.. i mean CRAZY..

took 18pics in 10min!

can u believe duke! n its free :D

cos use my web cam ma.. haha

yar.. wanted to upload them but..

unfortunately.. sadly.. disappointingly.. Im a com idoit.. :'(

shamefully, i dunno how to upload pics~~~! wahh...

no.. being a com idoit is not such a bad thing yar.. at least.. at least.. well.. let me think.. ah!

at least i can draw :)

i can sing =)

I can play guitar :D

i can.. compose music =D

and i can dance! 8D

muahaha!!

so proud of myself..

alright.. dun look at me like tt... cant i jus be lame once in awhile? :o

Monday, September 25, 2006

i jus realised something..

very time im nervous.. I'll have stomachache and a weird kind of seizure in my heart!!!

worse of all.. uncontrollable trembling and mumbling.

wat took me so long to realise my bad habit?

sad.

haha!!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Let me promise you that this is a very random blog;

Warning: thoughts below wouldnt match each other.

-how am i gg to explain myself?

-stupid me, i fall again

-come on, haven u realise that?! Stop looking at the matter! look at the heart of the matter!!! stop acting saint would u?

-great, my dad found out bot it

-shld i jus bury it?

-i need money!!!

-Im so screwed

-i need a new guitar!! my current guitar sucks!

-screw you, yating

-i cant believe i did tt.

-gross

-can i say no?

-i dunno how to continue..

-oyar.. if u r reading my blog, go ahead.. n if u are curious.. well.. u may ask.. but NOTICE I SAY U MAY.. dun ever try to interrogate me. I can choose to reply or not.. dun try to be pushy esp. if u dunno me too well..

Im sorry that im blunt.. but u jus got to accept the blunt me

-stop doing that wont u?

-ur an idiot, how many more pple do u wan to hurt?!

-how shld i tell her?

-hey, im so tempted to do anythg for money, desperate for cash here.. wont mind some donation tt would save this poor little soul :)

-would u jus stop it? STOP IT.

-hey, i love the svc today

-joker, y everythg's happening so timely? hah

-if u have nothing better to comment of, jus shut up. yea. SHUT.UP.

-i dun think its funny, stop fooling alright?

-i love Uni of Buffalo.

-can i have some privacy please??

-hey, my course mates r so fun.. nv regret coming here:)

-im so mess up. tell me how to tidy up?

-understanding, that's all i asked for. really.

-skool is getting a little stress.. but i guess its still fun

-Lord, i dunno wat to do with this, im at my wit's ends.

- got to break all those ties. come on. jus do it!

-i so felt like escaping

-i want to eat chocolate

-hey, the peach wine taste really good.. but the alcohol content's too high! can u believe it? its 42% alcohol! how did i drink tt?! haha

-man, it reminds me of flaming waterfall, so toxic, so hot! who wanna join me for one? :D

-im so dying to lose all memories

-anyone has unchain melody? send me would u?

-i really dunno, i cant help it.

-i need to buy some make up xia..

-o... jaylin, sorry for the delay, shall meet up real soon yar?

-im missing lots of pple

-im so dying to meet evelyn again.

-im sleepy

-hey, really thank you so much, w/o you, i would be dead by now. :)

-u saved my life

-pls gimme a sound mind

-make it wiser too, it would be nice if i can be wiser than King Solomon

dun understd wat toking me? dun worry, because, its not mend for u to do so. :)

especially YOU.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Hey~! THis is the best definition of Ex-es I ever heard;

Ex boyfriends=expired, should be exiled, excluded(I added this.. gee), excecuted and exterminated.

Is this CooL or wat? :D

Thursday, September 14, 2006

hey ben, really thks for being so understanding and encouraging..

u speak out exactly everything of wat i want to say.. ur really amazing..

really appreciate tt :)

thkx again

hey hey hey! check it out guys! i got full marks for psychology man! so watch out yar... i can read ur mind~~??

or perhaps it means im psychotic??

muahahaha

im so proud of myself.. i've took a courageous step..

my turning point is ard the corner.. :D

Monday, September 11, 2006

phiew.. its a really llooonnnggg day for me today..

my day only ends at 10plus pm.

have been thinking bot a lot of things today.. as in, u noe, was 'enlighten'.

I have gain some wisdom thru somethings i saw today. It makes me wonder wat am i gg to do wif myself.. am i gg to remain stagnant?

no way.. hey, i hate boring purposeless life..

anyway, i was inspired n decided to make some changes..

o yar.. everything was well today other than the unpleasant experience on the MRT.

there's this psychotic fat guy who keep disturbing me. I tot dropping at cityhall will be save but.. (*@&$*$&#*&$)#(. ...

he followed me!! grrr..

and i was dumb enuff to choose a two seater corner seat!

hais..

n he squeezed in.

felt so miserable n stupid.

though i could ignore him by sleeping..

den he starts toking to me!!!

GREAT

of cos i ignored him.

but he starting eating my 'tofu'

was super pissed.

wanted to yell at him.. but jus learnt anger management today..

n i ( did truthfully) felt a bit sorry for him..

he looks very insecure n rejected..

so i jus pretend like nothing has happened(though it was so obvious tt even the guy sitting opp. keep staring)

O.. n i realise many guys in this country are really wimpy, they really dunno when to stand up for the occasion..

hey, cant u see i was bullied? n u only know how to watch show. ur so gay.

irritating.

another reason for me to kind of let it go is cos..

he is very big size.

n he dun look like he's mentally sound

i was so afraid of being beaten up by him if i confront him!

y is it tt such things keep happening to me nowadays?

disgusting animals.

to show tt im not bias, well, there are still some nice guys out there..

jus tt there's not many left.. i had gladly met some. but this population of men is decreasing steeply.

To Emily: hey gal, im fine.. i was jus grumbling.. n after which I'll forget bot it.. i didnt really mean everything i said(which is a bad habit tt im trying to change).. lol. im fine with meeting up then. u jus update me again, alright? :)

To wii wii: tsk.. i've forgotten tt u read my blog too.. shldnt have blog about tt.. esp when u r ard.. words will spread fast :\ muahah.. jk la. no la. its not someone u noe.. dun think i dunno who u r thinking of!! its not him. We were through so so long ago.. In fact, we didnt really started anything anyway. *pause* alright, we did, but it didnt really bother me k. anyhow, its not him. and.. yar.. i doubt u noe who is it.. cos im pretty sure nobody knows.. and i dun wanna tok bot it. jus know tt its not like wat u think.

p.s. dun discuss this with the old frens hor.. or i'll kill u and i emphasize again..

it's not like wat u think .

in fact, im waiting for some good news from u. need my help? I am always ever willing to ur match-maker =)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

bump into someone I tot I will never see again at a bus stop, or should I say, never want to?

I tot I have gotten over. I tot I have forgiven.. only to realise how fearful I was when I saw this someone. Have I really forgiven? I dunno.. I only know tt i was so scared that I choose to walk to MRT station instead of taking the bus. What's wrong with me? Think I am really not tt strong after all.. told you.. haha.

well, the msg comes timely again..

but.. tell me where to turn pls..

I believe there's a reason for You to let me meet this someone today.

I know You are trying to tell me something.

This is no coincidence.

lead me.

please.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

well.. Pastor spoke the right word at the right time at the right place. but where's the right pple? sorry tt i sounds so skeptical.. but seriously.. where r u? pastor's right, i've made too many inner vows when i was a child tt i have forgotten.. no wonder i felt stuck in some areas.. but really.. i did try. and i tried real hard. i mean it. but it seems that nobody cares if i tried, they only care when i dun. interesting yar? some will only tell me, dun look at ur problem, look up to God. i totally agree with tt. but.. i dun need the talk. i already knew tt. show me the walk. im also a human alright? im not perfect.. in fact, i more imperfect than anyone would have thought. believe for me that. im really not tt strong. the truth is.. i feel really helpless in making some choices.. i need a lot of courage. i need faith. i need a breakthrough. n God, i need You. make me or break me. God, send pple who will help, send not the air talkers, not the thorns to my flesh. and LORD, tell me wat to do about this? its really getting out of hands.