「 dancing away Tuesday, October 31, 2006 」

ho ho, swam 10laps again today.. but wasnt non stop cos was disgusted by the water.. so many dead ants!! yar.. den went home and cook myself an egg.. dunno y that makes me feel happy..lol.
o, and i did facial, moisturized my hair and took a 15mins nap.. hmm.. feeling refresh. well, i thought doing homework will make my life less mess up but they still seems like 'untouchables' to me. :well.. i'll TRY to be some work later.. especially my overdued ESL essay.
hmm.. maybe i should do some crunches later.
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yaya! since when have u been so healthy??
hmm.. i dunno man, not exactly so. it just makes me feel better doing all these stuff.. maybe because it makes me feel more organise? or maybe they keep me busy? or maybe i know i'll appreciate these little efforts im making now?
o well.. heck~ la la lala lalalala~

「 dancing away Saturday, October 28, 2006 」

did something im-pomp-tu yesterday.
told meow that i was bored.
she sugguested that maybe i should go for a swim.
and yes, i went offline and went for a swim immediately.
swam 13laps in an hour, with 10laps non-stop.
not bad huh.
very on yar?
yap, it's partly the motivation of rou xin, my shi fu.
she told me how her shi fu lost 10kg in 2.5months.
freaked me out.
i wont go that far.
but i'll try something in between.
thanks for the motivation rou :)
o, that's the boy that i really wanna kill him though he didnt do it intentionally.
i bumped into him at least twice while swimming.
one of which he kicked on my chest.
and i mean CHEST. nothing more k.
but the thing is, he kicked off my swimming costume!
#@)(@#$)*$)(#*$%&%&!!!
felt like slapping him.
thank God I've got fast re-flex,
i pulled back quickly.
and fortunately no one saw(hopefully)
so embarassing.
hmmm..
Im bored now.
should i go for a swim again later?
i dunno if i like swimming that much.
but it clears my mind a little.
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btw, I love Cranberries though I know they are an old oolldd band.
and I love their songs. Look, here is one of their songs..
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Salvation
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Album: To The Faithful Departed
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To all those people doin' lines,
Don't do it, don't do it.
Inject your soul with liberty,
It's free, it's free.
To all the kids with heroin eyes,
Don't do it, don't do it.
Because it's not not what it seems,
No no it's not not what it seems.
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Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
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Ah, ah, ah, ah
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To all the parents with sleepless nights,
Sleepless nights.
Tie your kids home to their beds,
Clean their heads.
To all the kids with heroin eyes,
Don't do it, don't do it.
Because it's not not what it seems,
No no it's not not what it seems.
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Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
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Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free.
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Ah, ah, ah, ah

「 dancing away Thursday, October 26, 2006 」

hey hey~~~

look! look! look!

i've got new nails~~

nail polish i mean:D

meow did it for me.. thankssss!

though it looks a bit ugly due to my ugly short nails..

o.. i cant stand it, its sssoooo bimbotic.

but i love the maroon color~

ghee

ho ho.. tell me u love my nails too:)

ok.. now i need a hair cut..

o, and facial too

「 dancing away Wednesday, October 25, 2006 」

great. i havent study for my test.
congratulations yating, u screw urself up once again.
keep it up.

「 dancing away Tuesday, October 24, 2006 」

went for a ride on louis' car.. so shiok.. we bought a big pack of soya milk, then emily and me was relaxing behind. we went from toa payoh to bugis to orchard to little india. though will see nice lightings, in the end.. so boring.
i wish i have a car too. so convenient. when will i get my 1st million bucks?

「 dancing away Monday, October 23, 2006 」

well, i just read from a website that if u wanna resolve ur problems and heal the hurts and wounds, u got to talk it out, and it's tremendously more effective if u say out the specifics and details. Really? I think so too.. but well, I dunno, u can try it out. Sometimes u just got to do it urself to know its true. It's a professional website though.

Music Video:DARE YOU TO MOVE (by Switchfoot)

「 dancing away Saturday, October 21, 2006 」

hmm.. i dunno, i mean.. im not feeling good right now.. neither am i feeling lousy.. u know.. its like.. no feeling.. its just weird. u know, no climax, no low point.. and the day just went by.
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indeed, communication is the key.. after talking to u, i realise.. well, im quite a fool huh.. i mean, hey, i know i have my fault too.. but now, i realise.. ur not who i think u are..
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i asked what had happened to our friendship? u said, well, nothing wrong, u treated everybody the same, u cant see the problem.. alright, i get it. im just wondering why u always ask if we are good friends. so much about being good friends. i get it. sorry that i have expected too much. sorry that i have been naive to think that, well, good friends can expect more. and so, i am 'everybody' to u.. sure, u treated everybody the same and fairly. how noble. yar.. i dunno about u.. but i have a different definition of good friends.
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to you: call me when u need me, dont expect me to know you have a problem. no problems, no calls.
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to me: i love it when we can call each other all the time bcos, i just enjoy chatting with u, with or without problems, we chat about anything under the sky. but bcos my mum is naggy about me using homephone, u know, im sorry u got to call instead of me calling out most of the time.
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my theory: i dont expect my good friends to know what i like or hate all the time, but i expect them to ask and find out. and i expect myself of doing the same too.

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aparrently, im asking too much. u said that, 'hey, im not God, i cant read ur mind.' of cos u cant, that's y i expected communication., but.. it didnt seem impt to u.. also.. u mean, i have to specifically instruct u on how to treat me? and write down and 10commandments of yating? ? do i have to? or the 101 ways to make sure yating knows ur her good friend? do i really have to??
hmm.. maybe..? but i have decided that.. i cant be bothered since now that we know we have different expectations and u dont seem to agree with my point at all.. i guess.. its ok. yes, we are still friends yar.. no worries. and friends we will remain. it's just that maybe, we are never good friends meant to be.
yes, i will manage my expectations.. we are just people from different world. u r systematic. i am emotional. and maybe, like u think, im too sensitive. cant help it, im born a woman.
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seriously, i do think that i am at fault too. im sorry that i didnt tell u earlier, i mean, i really have problem being straight forward to u. and i know u have problem understanding me.. so, im sorry. just dont ever ask me about are we good friends or close friends or whatever if u dont know what it means in yating's dictionary. yar, please dont.
dont worry, im not upset with u anymore:) im glad that i have a better understanding now.. u still can call me when u need me, i'll be there.. i'll still do my best to be a friend to u.
but frankly, do know that, dont expect me to open myself up to u anymore. sorry, for this, i just cant.
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hey, was chatting to a mother earlier on and in the middle of it:
the mother: i hate to go but i need to do some laudrey.
me:laudrey? poor thing.. well, u have to answer to your divine calling mother so and so. thank God I dont have to touch those stuff. LOL
the mother:girl.. SOMEDAY.. someday it will be your turn.*jealous*
me: o well, I won't, I'll make sure my kids and my husband do the job.
the mother: you do have alternative though, there are such commercial service provided everywhere.. just that it cost a bit more.
me: well, i have a better idea.. I'll probably throw the kids in the washing machine for a spin. 1) the clothes are washed. 2) the kids get cleaned up. 3) free entertainment for them! i'll save some money and they wont disturb me the rest of the day.. probably, they will be probably vomit after the ride and go to bed. :D
the mother: laughing off her head
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tell me im smart :)
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o, i was telling meow that maybe i'll start writing stories on the blog. she sugguested me to write sad, morbid stories that will make people cry their trousers off. though im quite good at that.. but i thought, i rather make people laugh yar? so.. maybe, i'll write some crappy stories.. that will be a good headstart for my future carreer. or maybe i'll writing about inspiring stuff? i dunno, but most likely they will be in series. see how it goes.. :D
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emil's so nice, he's such a gentleman today, usually ask him to carry things, he will like, carry urself la( though in the he will still carry for me). today, he didnt complain while i asked him to carry my guitar the whole day. and after our dinner, he waited for me to get on the bus before he takes the train(he has nv done that). how nice of him.. gee. hey, it's good to see such good change in u=)
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and o yar, william sheldd is so fARNI.. go see his clips on. youtube. i mean, he's really lame and gay. but i have to admit that he is really talented and charasmatic.

「 dancing away Friday, October 20, 2006 」

Im feeling a little goofy right now..

ho hoo hoho hooo~

have u ever had the feeling where so many things run through ur mind that it seems that they were just thoughts that merely running through.. and the only thing these thoughts do are that they make u feel like u have a heavy head that's going to crack anytime.. the heavy head is one thing, the heavy heart is another thing. Is'nt it interesting that how the mind is related to the heart in such a way? how do u describe the pain that is in the heart when it feels so real, sometimes more real than the physical pain? how do u?

so i have learnt that often, physical pain is nothing compared to the mental and emotional torment. yar?

tell me that i can be a good psychologist! :D

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was watching youtube last night.. wait.. this morning rather.. yar, was watching my favorite cartoon The Simpsons! then somehow i came across the series of Buffly The Vampire Slayer clips.. i mean, i used to watch those shows a lot.. i love those.. but... little did I know they were sSsoo XXX-rated! O my goodness.. i know i shouldnt be blogging about this especially after the last entry.. i know im risking myself of potential persecution from the 'Lao skool' community.. but well.. i thought it will be something interesting for u to know.. and also.. who cares?? this is my blog, i can talk about anything i like!! :D

Im really naughty now.. hehe

so anyhow, im going discuss about this.. it's so hard core explicit! believe me.. i didnt expect to see what i saw.. no wonder my friend in US cut off the normal TV line.. they even show lesbians on bed.. and its not like 4-5secs.. its 4-5minutes of those stuff.. I almost fainted alright..

so, can u imagine how much they have censored from the ones we have watched here? 80% i guess..

anyhow, i dont recommend u guys to watch( but i know all the lao lao school committees will, especially the old maid Board of Director who always watch liao zai.. muahaha!).

watch this instead, the waking life.

its a very interesting animated movie.. do take note of the details while watching, its very interesting and makes you ponder a lot.. though it can be pretty errie and nonsensical at some point.. i watched it mainly because i like the animation, the drawing is so cool! and the director is quite handsome.. lol.. im kidding.. the director is a crank!

so.. dont bother listening to the director's comment, its a waste of time.. just appreciate his dramatic bizarreness..

「 dancing away Thursday, October 19, 2006 」

background info for the following content: ab and i teach have the same student by the name of Chia you. So.. we often discuss about the naughty student and today while in the washroom... :
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AB: eh, im doing oral with Chia You now.. not bad la..
me: *pause* what did u say? o.. haha.. get it.. sounded so wrong
AB: what the ****.. u huh.. (giggled)
lao meow: hey, what are u thinking man?! (slap my back) tsk tsk.. ya ting ah..
me: ops, sorry la.. k, so what did u do with him?
lao meow burst out: mUAHAHAAH!!!!
me: what?? eh.. what were u thinking man? im just asking a decent question
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meow, u r no better la~~ ROTFLMBO
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I guess UGC really screwed us up, or at least screwed me up. My brain's frozen.. my mind just cant be functioning right.. or is it the haze? watever.. i just want my brain back in place soon..
i just checked my crappometer: it says 103/100, definitely screwing up big time, take some pills and drink lots of cold water, preferably coke with lime. stay in a cage if possible in case u harm anyone. it would be even better if u can tie urself up in case u hurt urself too. In case of emergency, dont bother to call the cops, it will be too late.
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the crappometer is so accurate.
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i hate it when my relative visits me.. just mess me up even more. hope she will leave soon.

why is this foreign feeling eating me up?

not foreign, unknown rather.

i dont wanna get use to it though it's seeming so

「 dancing away Tuesday, October 17, 2006 」

"The hell to be endured hereafter, of which theology tells, is no worse than the hell we make for ourselves in this world by habitually fashioning our character in the wrong way."
-William James, the first American pyschologist-


that reminds me, hey, i got freaking 23/25 for psychology, that means 92 percent.. so tyco man.. lol.. but still, thank God for good results :)

「 dancing away Monday, October 16, 2006 」

im crying right now

for u.. i couldnt understand why u hate urself so much..

it really hurts me when u says u want to end ur life really soon.

what is the guilt so hard to bare?

i really want to know.

please dont do it.

PLEASE

i dunno what to say anymore.

u have no idea how grieve i am.

just.. PLEASE DONT DO IT, would u?

「 dancing away Saturday, October 14, 2006 」

ho ho ho~~

i have got my aire tattoo!! a rose on my neck..

but i doubt it will last too long

especially its pple like me who are so reckless.. lol

and.. my tragus pirecing is gone~~ :(

man, pireced two times already.. donno if i should go for the third time

not the pain that im concern with, its not painful anyway, i am just scared that my tragus will collapse.. lol..

anyway, it has been a loonnngg week, so many things happened( or at least in my mind.. haha)

was trying to make many decisions..

but still couldnt decide in the end.

o, and today i spent $8.30 to 'clean up' my life a little.. lol..

i mean, i got myself an accounts book so that i know where my money goes too, and.. note tape, to paste everywhere so that i can see what i need to do all the time.. and blue tac, to stick papers on the wall..

think next week I am going to Ikea to get a bookself, my room is turning into a squatter soon!(or it is already?)

anyone wants to join me?

wanted to get my bedloaf too.. but dont have enough money now :'(

*sigh*

there's soo soooo many things i need but dont have money to buy, like an electric guitar(quite cheap for 200bucks with an amplifier), an acoustic guitar, make ups, books.. etc.

O Lord, please drop down money from heaven.

wait long long xia.. lol

guess all these things got to wait~

but still, im determine to get my life right, i mean, at least organised.

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have been chatting to this girl lately.. poor girl, she's actually planning on how to kill herself..

she even asked me: shld i slit myself, take pills, or jump off the building? take pills better right? painless..

NO!!!!!!!!!

of course not!!!!!!!!

it's greater pain ok.. in any case, committing suicide will only cost MUCH greater pain.

its a permanent solution for a temporary situation.

think about your family members who will be upset with your death..

think about your friends..

think about me!!!

if no one esle care, be sure that i cared gal..

i do.

u have a GREAT future ahead of u..

really, a great future, dont give up. NEVER give up.

its just that u haven realised yet.

i beg u.. ppllleeeaassee... dont do anything silly.

i know how u feel, its not easy. i know.

but, we can go through this together..

im your friend yar.. :)

tell me whenever u need me, i'll do whatever i can to help.

promise.

your life is just too precious to be ruined like that

its often easier said than done.

but..

at least we try yar?

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for all those who are thinking of ending your life like her, PLEASE dont k.. though i know death is a tempting option,

like i say, its only a decieving temptation.

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i always cant help but to be upset to see friends and people around me to think that life is meaningless and wanting to end their life.

how sad.

some times, its because of something painful happened to cause them feel this way.

and for some reason, I have been meeting more and more such hurting people lately..

To all those hurting: i wish i can carry some of your hurts for u, I mean it.

u know, if u really need someone to listen to, u can talk to me k.. im a good listener..

i may not have all the answers, i may not understand what u r really going through..

but do know that i care. and i want to go through this with u :)

sometimes, we just need someone to listen too yar?

「 dancing away Thursday, October 12, 2006 」

watched World Trade Centre today

cried buckets

well, its not as drama as i thought it would be

i thought i will be seeing pple jumping off buildings and die tragically

it didnt happen that way.

a little disappointed.. lol

but nonetheless, it's a good movie worth watching.

really encouraged me quite abit

didnt feel too good earlier.

was a little frustrated with some stuff.

but the movie made me feel better:)

make me think a lot

was reflecting

i think i have been wasting a lot of time lately huh..

i like it when he said: pain is ur friend, you feel pain because you are alive, embrace it.

how true

and indeed, it is in adversity that we see the ugliness, the worse side of mankind.

yet, at the same time, there is the beautiful, the goodness of man that is released too, which we often forgot to mention.

think about it.. isnt it true?

in any crisis, it always reveals your true self.

your strength and weakness.

your fears and virtues.

your likes and your dislikes.

yar?

anyway, the movie is a long one.

got home at 1230am

o.. and my mum kept the soup for me(i think) though i already said Im not going home for dinner.

how thoughtful of her

sometimes i feel really bad that i didnt treat them like they ought to deserve

that like i didnt appreciate them

definitely they are imperfect parents

but they did give their best to me the way that they know how.

sorry that i havent been understanding sometimes.

really.

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life is so fragile

so so fragile

that's why you got to handle life with care

bcos its precious

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what would you do if you were in the WTC?

the 1st thing i would do is to hug someone i guess

i want to protect that someone, at least when i hug the person(hopefully smaller size),

at least i can try to save someone with my body.

i could take up the injuries for the person.

even if i cant save the person,

at least he or she knows that i've tried

that there's someone who cared for his or her life.

hey, im serious.

I DONT wanna just die a silly way one day.

if i am going to die,

i am going to die for a good cost.

if i am going to live still the age of 90, i think i'll join the army or something like that .. lol

hey, dont tell me ur enemies wont freak out when they see a 90yrs old grandma on the team yar?

or maybe i'll go be a police? whatever.

anyhow, life is short. and fragile. it will be gone before u know it.

and you only live once

make it worthwhile.

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Lord, wat have i been doing? i dun wanna waste time anymore. no more. help me please Lord.

help me. please.

PLEASE.

「 dancing away Saturday, October 07, 2006 」

L.I.V.E.

so easy to spell.

so easy to say.

but it is really not easy to LIVE.

i mean, staying alive is one thing, to live is another thing.

and when u miss one step and end up on the wrong side of the path,

u shouldnt be surprise to be find urself with EVIL, the opposite of what live means.

I always foolishly wish that life could be easlier.. but seriously, may be life wouldnt be interesting anymore if its too easy, dont u think so?

watever.. guess im a little tired.

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no matter how dark the night is, the sun will rise the next morning. the sun will always shine

was reminded of what miko asked me once..

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miko: u like to hug metal pot better or pillow?

me(staring at her bewildered and suspicious): der... pillow of cos. y would anyone want to hug a metal pot??!! that person must be cranky!

mike(grinning): well, according a guy friend, hugging a fat guy is like hugging pillow and hugging macho six pack duke is like hugging metal pot.

me: o my goodness, ur fren muz be a plump guy huh..

mike(smiling): bingo.

me: yea... i knew it, self consoling. I rather hug a metal pot then.

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in life, everything has a price tag.

u want hunkies, u gotta let go of some comfort den.. :D

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mAUAHAHAHAA!!! right miko?

and so I admittedly is that cranky person.. lol

「 dancing away Wednesday, October 04, 2006 」

aiyo..econs sux big time.. once again, i didnt study, was chatting n playing wif lao meow and helena.. tsk tsk. but the paper was ok.. so i guess.. i shld be fine.. anyway, i was tricked by helena again.. hais.. changed my msn nick! yao kuai! dunno wat new tricks she will try to come out with next few days.. this reminds me of the show, problem child. i think she shld join the cast for problem woman 101.. muahaha!

o.. went home at ard 8plus pm today.. u guess wat?

i was tailed by a 'lao di ko'.. freak me out k.. wat's more the place i was walking thru was quite dark.. so smart me quickly sms miko for rescue. asked her to chat wif me, u noe, in case anything happen, i can scream n she can call the police for me.. haha..

but to my horror.. she didnt reply!!

argh.. wat a friend~ wat a sad life i have :'(

actually she did la.. but was like an hour later.. if anything had happened, by that time, Im alrdy dead, decomposed n turned into a butterfly.

so.. after awhile, i quickly walk to the main traffic road n he disappeared.. phew~

xiao lei.. y is hougang so unsafe..

n y such things keep happening nowadays? xian diao..

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the thing is thst he is a saggy balding old man wif a 'united nation'..

make me lose appettite only.

y isn't a young handsome macho hunk instead?

tt i wont mind :D

muahaha!

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hey, i manage to upload music myself!! yeah!!! and thks to helena to help me do the rest :D

「 dancing away Tuesday, October 03, 2006 」

xian xian.. what to do when u dunno wat to do?

feel so stuck.

man, i have a revelation on what exactly NO CHOICE is.

wat would u do if u were me? anyway.. argh.. psycho sux la.. didnt study chpter 1 and all the nonsense were out. couldnt believe that she will ask those questions.. im jus hoping for a miracle.. i need an A.

o.. n there's econ's test tml.. and im here online.. man, wat am i thinking? hmm..

*raise eye brown*

dunno la... super no mood to study..

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when aunt's house to give James tuition, as always, hyperactive and super annoying.. while at least i get to see justin, my cute little cousin.. he has grown lot over the last few months, looking more and more handsome.. :D

cant help but to want to kiss him all the time.. y is he soooo adorable?

babies are jus so cute(as long as they're not mine.. lol), aint they?

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dunno how to tell u anymore.. but really, dun u understd? i dun need to noe wat to do. i already knew. i jus need you to listen, to understd, to let me lean on.

「 dancing away Sunday, October 01, 2006 」

learnt something yesterday.. well, not exactly learn.. more as in reminded me the love languages that we all relate to.. indeed, communication is the key of life and speaking the right love languages to each other is vital.

The five love languages:

1)words of affirmation

-that is, speaking positive and encouraging words. many pple (esp.some retarded guys) are very weak in this area

-btw, do realise tt for everyone -ve word u say to someone, he or she needs another 16 +ve words to recover!

2)quality time

-not quatity time. that means, spending long hours tgt does not build any relationship if one did not devote wholeself or pay attention to each other. and this applies to ALL kinds of r/ship. be it mother-child, boy-girlfriend or even jus friends.

however, a part of quality time do requires a substantial quantity of time

3)Gift giving

-you can giving without loving but NOT love WITHOUT giving

-actually, this is the easiest love languages to learn!

-and this is to give something of great value to the one u love, which includes time.

-physical presence in the time of crisis is the most powerful gift you can give to your loved ones(yea, i totally agree with this, it works for me).

this, again, reminds me of some hypocritical friends i use to have or still have. if u need a friend and he or she claims tt he or she is too busy for u(using very lame excuses), or they say that they will be there to support u, yet nv call u up or even send a sms to see how u r(personally, sending sms all the time is one of the most insincere way of showing concern), DO openly condemn the person, he is not ur friend. he is jus a freaking liar.

4)Acts of service

-by that, i do not mean doing the things to other of wat u like others to do to u, its doing wat u know the other person would like you to do!

-that requires thought, planning ,time , effort and energy!

-always do this with a right attitude, if not, dun bother. cos ur jus a lame jerk

5)Physical touch

-the term explain itself

-of cos this does not mean bashing up ur friend or do anything offensive to the other party!

-this will means helding or hugging the person, carassing (in decent sense of cos!), a peck on the cheek.

-in other words, phyiscal contact

-again, applied to all types of r/ship

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upon knowing this, its time to evaluate which are your primary and secondary love languages. that means, which type of love expression is more appropriate to urself.

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ok.. for myself, my primary love language is physical touch.

dun look at me like that! :\

someone was shock, in fact almost laugh at me when i said tt, tt's y i didnt really want to tell pple im not close too.. they only piss me off with their bloody immaturity

hey, God created me this way alright.. at least i dare to admit wat type of person i am:)

unlike u, mockers.

and my secondary love language is words of affirmation. surprisingly, this is a primary love language for most males. do i have as much ego? lol.. may be. anyway, now that u noe this, STOP SAYING STUPID SENSELESS THINGS INFRONT OF ME. frankly, i despise pple like tt. i mean, when u r laughing at, demeaning or criticising another person( tt includes stupid rude jokes), u r insulting urself more than u insulting anyone esle. because ur jus showing that u have no respect for urself. that's y u cant respect others. and u have PROBLEM intellectually and emotionally to relate to pple. i didnt want to say this but i felt i have to. cos some pple u really need to speak to them THIS plainly. i hope u r reading this, whoever.

-so if u have nothing better to say. SHUT UP. dun talk to me. i rather hang ard wif encouraging pple.

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btw, i hate pple who talks and laugh loudly all the time, esp guys. can really kill me k! i felt like i have been reduced to a moron when such pple r ard. so ppllleeeaasse. dun yell to me. talk to me instead. speak properly and nicely and put some thoughts in wat u r gg to say.

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and again, i have to say i dun really like smses. i mean, pls, if possible, call me instead of smsing. no offences, but in some cases, i really think its insincere. and NEVER EVER PASS MSG TO ME THROUGH THIRD PARTY, its very very very VERY IRRITATING esp. when u do that all the time. n its plain stupid. and i do mean STUPID.i know of some pple like tt(actually, only one or two).. n tt's y u will see that i dun talk to them bcos i think they are retarded.

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eeww.. i sounded like a skeptical, dont i? lol.. who cares.

hey, but i do wanna thk God for many great friends i have..

to my great friends: you may not have done right stuff all the time, but i noe u have tried ur best. sorry if i doubted some of u esp. when we are distance and spartial apart. it only prove that ur all such great and faithful friends. when i needed u, u guys are there. thks you. :) hope to catch up with some of u soon! :D

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to whoever: stop talking mindless and mundane things to me and think tt this is quality communication. its not always abot UR dreams, UR vision,UR goals and UR life. this is a real world. I exist too. spare a thought for me. it jus doesnt work this way alright.