If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
「 dancing away Saturday, October 14, 2006 」


ho ho ho~~
i have got my aire tattoo!! a rose on my neck..
but i doubt it will last too long
especially its pple like me who are so reckless.. lol
and.. my tragus pirecing is gone~~ :(
man, pireced two times already.. donno if i should go for the third time
not the pain that im concern with, its not painful anyway, i am just scared that my tragus will collapse.. lol..
anyway, it has been a loonnngg week, so many things happened( or at least in my mind.. haha)
was trying to make many decisions..
but still couldnt decide in the end.
o, and today i spent $8.30 to 'clean up' my life a little.. lol..
i mean, i got myself an accounts book so that i know where my money goes too, and.. note tape, to paste everywhere so that i can see what i need to do all the time.. and blue tac, to stick papers on the wall..
think next week I am going to Ikea to get a bookself, my room is turning into a squatter soon!(or it is already?)
anyone wants to join me?
wanted to get my bedloaf too.. but dont have enough money now :'(
*sigh*
there's soo soooo many things i need but dont have money to buy, like an electric guitar(quite cheap for 200bucks with an amplifier), an acoustic guitar, make ups, books.. etc.
O Lord, please drop down money from heaven.
wait long long xia.. lol
guess all these things got to wait~
but still, im determine to get my life right, i mean, at least organised.
.
.
have been chatting to this girl lately.. poor girl, she's actually planning on how to kill herself..
she even asked me: shld i slit myself, take pills, or jump off the building? take pills better right? painless..
NO!!!!!!!!!
of course not!!!!!!!!
it's greater pain ok.. in any case, committing suicide will only cost MUCH greater pain.
its a permanent solution for a temporary situation.
think about your family members who will be upset with your death..
think about your friends..
think about me!!!
if no one esle care, be sure that i cared gal..
i do.
u have a GREAT future ahead of u..
really, a great future, dont give up. NEVER give up.
its just that u haven realised yet.
i beg u.. ppllleeeaassee... dont do anything silly.
i know how u feel, its not easy. i know.
but, we can go through this together..
im your friend yar.. :)
tell me whenever u need me, i'll do whatever i can to help.
promise.
your life is just too precious to be ruined like that
its often easier said than done.
but..
at least we try yar?
.
.
for all those who are thinking of ending your life like her, PLEASE dont k.. though i know death is a tempting option,
like i say, its only a decieving temptation.
.
.
.
i always cant help but to be upset to see friends and people around me to think that life is meaningless and wanting to end their life.
how sad.
some times, its because of something painful happened to cause them feel this way.
and for some reason, I have been meeting more and more such hurting people lately..
To all those hurting: i wish i can carry some of your hurts for u, I mean it.
u know, if u really need someone to listen to, u can talk to me k.. im a good listener..
i may not have all the answers, i may not understand what u r really going through..
but do know that i care. and i want to go through this with u :)
sometimes, we just need someone to listen too yar?