If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.: December 2006

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We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.
It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

PROFILE

Name: Ting
Age: 21
D.O.B: 5th August

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

im so sad.. why are all the handsome guys are gays? :(
guys.. u all better buck up.. cant even dress better than gays.. tsk tsk.
well.. they are really like wat the tv shows them to be.. very macho physically.. but when u see how they behave and they talk, they can melt ur heart man..
well, i must say most of them are really very nice and friendly pple..
but only if they are straight :'(
i must say the number of gays in Singapore is surprising many. I feel like Im in the ancient greek society.. lol

Monday, December 18, 2006

life is beautiful, amazing, interesting, a miracle own itself own.. but at the same time, it could be sad, painful, mundane and unbearable sometimes.
life is a risky piece of art.
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Hurt Her Not
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Saw you on the street the other day
With your sweetheart embraced in your arms
You took a peek at me
I pretended I didnt know
Somethings are best left unspoken
She's not the best looking girl around
But sure she's falling over her heels for you
From her eyes I can tell
You are one lucky man
Treat her well
Please her as you can
Dont hurt her like how you did to someone else
Dont want to see another girl tormented by nightmares every night
Enduring all the pains, burying them, bearing them all alone
The ugly wounds take long time to heal
Dont even know when will the wounds be healed
Maybe never
The pain and shame no one esle could understand
But it doesnt matter now
Or at least i wouldnt want it to matter to you
Just dont let another girl be your victim
So.. Please dont hurt her

Sunday, December 17, 2006

taken by Maven using k800i. it's michelle and me. 3.2mega pixel.. and he got the phone for only 198 bucks during starhub midnight sales!

hey! I finally know how to upload photos! yea~~
anyway, yea.. its tze xian and me.. stupid geraldine fly us kite. yea, he havent change much.. just that he's a bit flabbier now..haha.

some updates on some interesting events that happened lately..
finally went to make my IC.. sucks.. wasted 60bucks. but at least im able to change the photo of my IC. it was a crazy buzy day. afterwhich went to meet abby for the textbk. so sorry gal that i got to rush off like that. afterwhich rushed to job agency.. on my way there, a guy stops in front of me and said, "I have been waiting for you, why are u walking so slow.."
me: ????
guy: yea.. blah blah blah(couldnt quite hear wat he said bcos of his strong accent)
me: erm.. do I know u? have u mistaken me as somebody esle?
guy: nah.. no, U dont know me. and dont worry, I'm not doing any sales.. why? are u nervous bcos a stranger's talking to u?
me(thinking): are u retarded or something.. obviously u shocked me...
guy continues: well, Im from america( like I cant tell).. how are u? so.. where are u gg?....blah blah blah.. and it continues
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I have to admit I have a nasty thought.. I thought I could have 'make use' of him, I mean.. get him to give me a treat or something so that I could save my lunch money.. but nah.. I dont wanna put myself in any risk.. he's soo darn tall and big.. who knows what he's up to yar.. if anything happen, I'll have only got myself to blame..
so anyway, I just kind of brush him off by calling up a friend and kind of ignore him..
weird but interesting encounter.
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went out with Tze xian on Friday.. havent met him for sooo long.. watched 'after this our exile' Aaron Kok is a great actor.. really. but the story lines sucks. dont waste ur money to watch man.. thank God I dont have to pay for it. stupid him tried to challenged me with pool.. well.. of cos I won in the end. 3:2. but hey, u did improve a lot old boy.. :D
I must say he is pretty mature for a 19years old. could u believe it? on the same evening.. according to him, a girl kind of hinting to him by being VERY touchy.. haha! he showed me the photo, quite pretty but too bad he didnt like her.. Im quite surprise.. well, not really surprise, i did always think that he is quite different from typical stupid immature boys.
anyway.. this is wat he said: aiya.. she's quite childish.. I prefer mature gals.. anyway, i dont have feelings for her. I dont wanna waste time and money dating her only to know that things wont work out.. I dont wanna cheat her feelings.. but.. I also dunno how to reject her lei..
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I must say I pretty impress by him. I mean, he's quite a mummy's boy.. erm.. and a little naive.. but very very sensible. I like going out with him cos he's such a gentleman.. not like some guys.. u just wanna shun a thousand miles away from them..
wisdom doesnt come by age. wisdom happens by choice.
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Maven is really my pal man.. though he's quite mischevious and silly at times.. he never fails to get my request done everytime I needed his help.. kudos to u boy! Im just so grateful to have a friend like him.. dont see that he has that tough and cool look.. he's pretty soft on the inside and definitely a sincere person.. sometimes.. it is really not those 'great' or 'strong' pple u need.. see.. most pple will just see him as a 'nobody' chap.. but.. he's not. at least to me. he's my friend. and maven, u taught me a lot about being a friend. :)
a very 'on' friend.
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I hate hyprocites. I hate pple who pretends to be who they are not. they just wear me off. I hate it when pple do the wrong things at the wrong times. ask the wrong things on the wrong occassion. I hate pple who just act and do things that they are not. I mean.. they do things unbelievingly.. its so frustrating to look at such crap.. it definitely piss me off when pple talk and act like fools. get alive.. please.. GET ALIVE!!! I need a break from all nonsense. In case u havent realise.. Im actually a pretty serious person despite of all the stupid crappy lame jokes I make at times. I have my limits. dont try to push the boundary. and dont try to jump into things and judge when u dont know anything. and dont always throw rubbish at me. Im not a bin.
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here's something inspiring:
Victory is not just the ability to win,
Victory is the capacity to accept and endure failures,
That u are always ready to say,
Let's give it another shot.
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You can live without food for about a month or so,
without water for a week
and without air for eight minutes.
But...
You CANNOT live a single second without HOPE.
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P.S. Can somebody teach me how to upload and paste the photos at the positions I want? I dunno how to do that yet.. :(

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Exploring

You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.
You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs.

An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.
You show people how to question their models of the world.

What's" Your Thinking Style?

hmm.. another test I took. again, pretty accurate but... what do u think?

Monday, December 11, 2006

***You Are An INFP***
The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
What's Your Personality Type?http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourpersonalitytypequiz/
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O well.. it's pretty true. but it forgot to stated that I can be pretty nasty and retarded sometimes.. hehe..
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HI GUYS!!! IM BACK~~~ whooaaaa hoooooo...
well.. actually other than exams, i havent had the mood to blog.. or do anything at all.. has been a little down, if u guys did notice and it affected u.. im sorry yar. Im not sure if I should say much here.. but yar.. its like a snowball, one after another. How I wish life could be easier sometimes (in fact, all the time..lol). So many things I wanna do but feel so limited. So many times I wanna change but im just so imperfect. Im just so unsatisfied at where I am now.. Im not some noble holy crap but I do wanna be a better person. I dont wanna live for myself alone.. but thank God, in the midst of all these there's always something I can be thankful of.. Thank God for great many friends. U know, I love to watch and hear from pple bcos there's so much u can learn in even little things they do and say.. eg, when someone just make a comment, I can learn a lot about the person already.. also, sometimes, what pple says make me reflect on myself..
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the other day, I was just listening to this angry guy talking.. he seems rich, influencial, have many friends.. but i feel for him. he seems to be a very lonely and hurt person. I dunno y i feel so.. but i just know it. he must be very hurt and disappointed with someone he respected and trusted, like his father, while growing up, may be its the bitterness that has been building up in him.. I dunno.. its just so sad to see a person abusing him or herself with alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, clubbing, wild acts.. I mean, it may seems fun. but really, deep underneath, pple are just trying to drown themselves with the high and excitment to get rid of the emptiness and hurts within.. but.. do all these help? yes.. there's high and excitment.. they do feel good but the feeling fades away quickly.. and it became a vicious cycle that they seems to dig deeper. How sad.. some of u are going through that isnt it? may be not in such explicit ways.. but r u drowning urself with other things like.. shopping? guys? girls? the longing to be accepted? constant fear of rejected? do u really mean it when u say u cant be bothered? It hurts to see so many pple around me hurting. the thing is they are all wonderful pple in nature, not nasty. but pple turns to weird and silly things when they are feeling mess up. sometimes, they dont even understand why. they just lose control. sometimes, they are just too insecure that they only think about themselves.. that they may forget about others around them who needed to be notice, wanted, like themselves.
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It may sounds clinche but really.. to meet ur needs to is first meet the needs of every other people ard u. I have learnt that in the hard way.
well.. precious lessons in life are often painful ones.
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My prayer is that my presence make the world a better place for everyone around me, that I can be a true friend to everyone who needs me. I want all my friends to be happier people and that I would be the one helping them to walk through life, helping my friends to fulfil their dreams and purpose in life.
well... Im not perfect. perhaps I anger and disappoints many pple already.. but i promise that will try the best I know how.
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o.. btw, miko.. ask shirley to stop thinking of opening a cafe with me until she fix her brain man.. lol. cranky gal.. stop day dreaming, let's be practical k.. I know u r (crazyly) ambitious but we cant be jacks of all trade. We will only end up as masters of none. so well.. until ur brain is fixed, then we talk about it again yar ;)