If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
「 dancing away Tuesday, April 22, 2008 」


Even though I cannot understand almost anything she said until Pastor summarised it, I totally enjoy just watching her preach, I totally enjoyed myself in her presence. Bcos Pastor Kim carries the presence of God. She already carries such great presence of God, cant imagine what it will be like when she and her husband come visit us one day. Cant wait for that day to arrive. She knows the Holy Spirit. Can tell by just looking at her. U can feel it. How precious. By the end of the service, I'm almost kneeling and crying out for more presence of God.

Have heard so many people talk about Holy Spirit, some are friends and even CGLs. But sometimes, the more I hear them talk, the more frustrated and disgusted I feel.
"O.. God's presence is in this place.., Holy Spirit is here right now.."

shut up.

They don't even speak out of faith but religious routine. And please, people can tell if God is with them.

Went for a make up cell recently, the person talks a lot about prayer and Holy Spirit. It was ok initially but after awhile, u can feel that it became religious. The leader rebuked and criticised people for not praying, stretched the whole 3hrs just emphasizing the consequences of not praying.
Didn't the bible says Words in excess is sin?

That person was still proud that the meeting ended so late. The last time I check, the Jesus in the bible speaks simple and powerful words. He hardly has to keep repeating Himself. But Satan always repeat the exact words and ways to perform the same purpose: to destroy mankind and de-glorify God. Jesus never focus on the adverse consequences, He always gives hope, and He demonstrates by example in power and in truth.

I totally hated it when people talk so much about God and Holy Spirit when they don't know Him, or even worse, didn't even realise that God has left the meeting. And I didn't pretend that I enjoyed the meeting. I was so upset that I left the place quickly after everything ended. Please don't pretend that u know the Holy Spirit when u don't ok? I have learnt over the years that I'm not here to please man but really God.

If u think I'm nasty, too bad. I can't pretend. Really, I will not compromise my standards to such low level. It's either God or people. I've compromised to many times in the past, I'm not going to allow others incompetency and flakiness to block my path. Like Abraham, I got to let go of Lot.

O... there's another issue that frustrated me too. But cant talk much about it cos if I mention it, everybody will know what I'm talking about. Anyway, Albert Einstein said it right, to keep repeating the same actions and expecting different results is insanity. I'm still considering should I just smoke through and 'wayang' with the insanes.

Ok.. I think I drifted too far away.. I really love Pastor Kim, hope she will come back again. If I have the money, I will go to their bible school one day. And yes, I really long for more of the Holy Spirit now. Still remember all the miracles He has done in my life. I desire to have such intimacy like what we used to have. Nope, I mean I wanted much more.

After so much hard work and hiccups, finally our business is picking up. So happy, not just about the profit but the fact the business is growing. So happy to see regular customers coming back and enjoying our pasta. There's this lady who bought two plates of spaghetti last week and then come back for two more take aways. Yesterday, she was back again for 3plates of spaghetti. It was over my expectation, business was so good that we sold out two times. Even CY was shocked when I told him. There's also a particular customer who always wipe out all our spring rolls. And she told me the prawn balls were terrible. I totally agree with her and appreciated her comments. Without truthful comments like that, we cant never improve. Yea, and have a hard time with the supplier, tried to cheat our money. Think that we are noobs and gave us all the nonsense. Thank God I studied business law, know how to deal with him. And thank God that I manage to find a much better supplier so quickly. Their food is much better even though it's a little more expensive.

It is so interesting watching the same people coming back every week, just to buy nacho fries, spring rolls or spaghetti. And it's more interesting to watch how the business grow and the satisfied faces of the customers. It is like watching your own baby growing up. Of cos, it's not perfect, some of the foods we are still trying to improve. And now I'm working on how to improve the taste of the spaghetti even better. Hopefully, it can be so good that I can open a restaurant selling just it one day.

It has been really tiring. Can u imagine, a late night person like me laid almost dead on my bed last night before midnight? And I slept all the way thru 12pm today. Not for the phone call by cy regarding the nasty supplier at 12plus, I bet I'll still be sleeping. Anyway, I fall back into my bed at 4plus pm again and sleep thru till almost 8pm. Ha ha.. imagine the work I have been doing. But its all worth it. :)

O.. and special thanks to people who have came to support, especially all my cg members, Elly, Ryan, Dom, Clement, BingXun etc. There's too many people to thank but really these few people made my day. I mean, we didn't really advertise or go around telling cos we thought it isn't really nice, some people may even misunderstand(which did happen). I was really happy about our biz and wanted to tell many people really , just like u have a new baby yar? But o well, I realise I cant do just that and have to suppress my joy. So sorry if u feel offended or think that I didn't want to inform any of u if u r reading this now. The truth is I almost wanted to tell the whole world. But like wat I said, something happened that convinced me that maybe I should just keep my mouth shut. And yea, it was really nice of Clement to come back to buy our food again even when his first attempt(our first day) was not such a good experience. Btw, I didn't even inform him about our stall. It was really nice of him to do that. This is who u call a friend.

And yea, I can forsee many great things to come, I can feel it in my spirit. So can I forsee the pressures ahead.. these two weeks I'm having exams. And my first paper is in two days time.. And I havent even touch my law notes! God be with me, and Lord please see me through.