If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.: June 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
「 dancing away Sunday, June 29, 2008 」


one experience. one conversative. one frustration. one situation. over the last week, so many things happened. what somebody has told me. what i feel over certain encounter. what i realised. what I experienced. what had happened. and what had not happen. I felt I'm a totally different person from whom I was two weeks before. What I used to be so confidence, so full of dreams of, suddenly became a nightmare to me. All of a sudden I dread to be engaged in all these. I so darn want to leave. I so want to get alive. Whether I'm right or not is not the issue, it's what's that presented to me as reality tt matters. I realise all these frustrations are not neccessary and I dont deserve them. why should I bear them. why should I live up to others' expectation when they don't respect mine? why should I give in so many times and sacrifice so much and all I've got is these shit. There wasn't any big things that happened. It's the subtle things. In the little things, that I realise, maybe the meter snapped without me even realising. Maybe it's time to move on. To move away at least.

I still believe there's something greater than reality, in fact I always believe. But I guess it's time to define my own reality... until reality hits me.. til then..



After listening to it again, then I realise why were u acting this way that night and what I was getting into.. shook me a little, i mean.. I was too taken away to even realise what was happening.. Anyway.. I didnt mean it. I mean, I like ur guts but.. let's not go further yea.



I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cuz I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life...

-Rihanna. Cry


Friday, June 27, 2008
「 dancing away Friday, June 27, 2008 」


In a recent interview with Warren Buffet, he was asked to advise how much should rich parents (and I mean very RICH) leave their inheritance for their children. Mr Buffet reply is as follows,

" You should leave enough money for your children to do everything, but not too much that they can do nothing."



finally.. I'm free! .. for one day.. boo. yesterday last paper but next week new class starting again. Anyway, after the intense 6weeks, my classmates decided to go double O to party the night off. Didnt felt like gg initially cos i really know many of them in this new batch and I'm exhausted from those stupid papers..

yea, intended to leave at 1plus am. In the end, surprise surprise, we rock off til the bouncer chase us out! haah. Yea, didnt expect my friends to be so fun, cos some were kuai kuai look. Like wise, my projectmates were shocked to find me pretty good at partying. yea, it was totally wild. WILD. dunno what else to say. haha. O.. the shots and jugs were dirt cheap. Jace freak us out, she's so girly when she's drunk, unlike usual! O.. I was good, didnt get drunk. Yea, cos i hate the puking n dizzy feeling. Haha.

The US students werent as fun as I thought they would be, I mean, I tot they're party animals. And they end up sitting ard quite a bit. yea, except one or two. Anyway, they're gg back soon. All the best people!

yea, had fun but dunno y very quickly i got bored. wanted to just go home quickly but my stingy friends(ok, not exactly, it's my friends' friends) want to make up 4people to cab back and all want to be first to be back.. end up i got to wait for one toturous hr before I can go home. argh, morons. So niao why come out to party, super piss off.

thks goodness for good big bros like clemence n sw. they really make sure we reach home safely. Yea, maybe can get pics from the guys to upload.


Saturday, June 21, 2008
「 dancing away Saturday, June 21, 2008 」


Sometimes, it's only when darkness seems unbearable that one would yearn for a glimpse of light.


Thursday, June 12, 2008
「 dancing away Thursday, June 12, 2008 」





What Aurore Tan Ya Ting Means



You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.



You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.



You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.



You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.







You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.







You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.



You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.











You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.







You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?




http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/


Friday, June 06, 2008
「 dancing away Friday, June 06, 2008 」


haaha.. so sorry that I go MIA for so long. been really bz with business and school lately. the 12days event at expo almost killed me. Felt totally drain after the event. And now I understand why some people say that boss are often work harder and longer hours than the workers. In a sense, I'm glad that there's a three weeks break til beginning of July cos I really need this rest. BUT... school projects have to come into the picture to torture me. To make things even more exciting, I don't have very friendly group members. As in, don't get me wrong, they are all nice pple.. but they are kind of agressive at work. To be frank, it's the first time I feel scared and threathened that I dare not be sloppy with work AT ALL.

Watched a show on teenagers issue. about this girl cutting herself to suppress the greater pain that is in her heart. Almost cried watching this simple show. Really feel for her. And suddenly, not something I didnt know before, I realise that many singapore teenagers are going thru such problems quietly. When I was in college, I already have three classmates with depression problem. It reminded me why I once thought of becoming a social worker. It rekindle the desire once again. Maybe. Who knows. One day, I will response to that desire.

On the lighter side, I'm so happy that people like my pasta! haha.. There's this malay girl (she's a staff)who eat my pasta almost everyday during robinson's sale. That already comforted me quite a bit. Cos she didnt choose to eat the inexpensive malay food next door and eat my relatively expensive pasta (eh. my pasta only 3.50 lo, dunno why some pple still think ex). And on the last day, she came and asked my mum,

"Auntie, where you open your stall one, can gimme the address, your pasta very nice, I want to come eat again."

You have no idea how happy I was when I heard that. I mean, even though I wasnt the one literally cooking it ( I came out with the recipe! :D ), my aunt was the chef most of the time, I'm just glad to see that we made a smile on someone's face. I dunno, I mean, I'm just contented that someone's happy bcos they ate our food. You know what I mean? Maybe that's what they called passion. That inspired me even more to improve my food. O, some people like my mum's stir fried sphaghetti too and came back for more, my mum also secretly laugh lo. Too bad it wasnt popular enough for us to continue selling it, maybe it's too spicy for some.

And thank you girl, though I don't know your name, I'll rmb your face. You certainly encourage me to take one more step towards buying my own shop. Yea, I feel sad to see her walk away disappointed upon hearing we have only one small stall at expo. But it's ok, I believe in 6months time (my goal), business will be well enough for me to expand and get a proper shop. I'm already looking around for good location. Have two places in mind, hope things will work out.

Btw, I'm thinking of adding a new item, Carbonara, what do you guys think? Is expo suitable to have more of such food? Or teriyaki chicken spaghetti?