If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.

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We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.
When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.
It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

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Name: Ting
Age: 21
D.O.B: 5th August

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Sunday, June 29, 2008

one experience. one conversative. one frustration. one situation. over the last week, so many things happened. what somebody has told me. what i feel over certain encounter. what i realised. what I experienced. what had happened. and what had not happen. I felt I'm a totally different person from whom I was two weeks before. What I used to be so confidence, so full of dreams of, suddenly became a nightmare to me. All of a sudden I dread to be engaged in all these. I so darn want to leave. I so want to get alive. Whether I'm right or not is not the issue, it's what's that presented to me as reality tt matters. I realise all these frustrations are not neccessary and I dont deserve them. why should I bear them. why should I live up to others' expectation when they don't respect mine? why should I give in so many times and sacrifice so much and all I've got is these shit. There wasn't any big things that happened. It's the subtle things. In the little things, that I realise, maybe the meter snapped without me even realising. Maybe it's time to move on. To move away at least.

I still believe there's something greater than reality, in fact I always believe. But I guess it's time to define my own reality... until reality hits me.. til then..