If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.
Monday, December 11, 2006
「 dancing away Monday, December 11, 2006 」


***You Are An INFP***
The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
What's Your Personality Type?http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourpersonalitytypequiz/
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O well.. it's pretty true. but it forgot to stated that I can be pretty nasty and retarded sometimes.. hehe..
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HI GUYS!!! IM BACK~~~ whooaaaa hoooooo...
well.. actually other than exams, i havent had the mood to blog.. or do anything at all.. has been a little down, if u guys did notice and it affected u.. im sorry yar. Im not sure if I should say much here.. but yar.. its like a snowball, one after another. How I wish life could be easier sometimes (in fact, all the time..lol). So many things I wanna do but feel so limited. So many times I wanna change but im just so imperfect. Im just so unsatisfied at where I am now.. Im not some noble holy crap but I do wanna be a better person. I dont wanna live for myself alone.. but thank God, in the midst of all these there's always something I can be thankful of.. Thank God for great many friends. U know, I love to watch and hear from pple bcos there's so much u can learn in even little things they do and say.. eg, when someone just make a comment, I can learn a lot about the person already.. also, sometimes, what pple says make me reflect on myself..
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the other day, I was just listening to this angry guy talking.. he seems rich, influencial, have many friends.. but i feel for him. he seems to be a very lonely and hurt person. I dunno y i feel so.. but i just know it. he must be very hurt and disappointed with someone he respected and trusted, like his father, while growing up, may be its the bitterness that has been building up in him.. I dunno.. its just so sad to see a person abusing him or herself with alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, clubbing, wild acts.. I mean, it may seems fun. but really, deep underneath, pple are just trying to drown themselves with the high and excitment to get rid of the emptiness and hurts within.. but.. do all these help? yes.. there's high and excitment.. they do feel good but the feeling fades away quickly.. and it became a vicious cycle that they seems to dig deeper. How sad.. some of u are going through that isnt it? may be not in such explicit ways.. but r u drowning urself with other things like.. shopping? guys? girls? the longing to be accepted? constant fear of rejected? do u really mean it when u say u cant be bothered? It hurts to see so many pple around me hurting. the thing is they are all wonderful pple in nature, not nasty. but pple turns to weird and silly things when they are feeling mess up. sometimes, they dont even understand why. they just lose control. sometimes, they are just too insecure that they only think about themselves.. that they may forget about others around them who needed to be notice, wanted, like themselves.
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It may sounds clinche but really.. to meet ur needs to is first meet the needs of every other people ard u. I have learnt that in the hard way.
well.. precious lessons in life are often painful ones.
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My prayer is that my presence make the world a better place for everyone around me, that I can be a true friend to everyone who needs me. I want all my friends to be happier people and that I would be the one helping them to walk through life, helping my friends to fulfil their dreams and purpose in life.
well... Im not perfect. perhaps I anger and disappoints many pple already.. but i promise that will try the best I know how.
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o.. btw, miko.. ask shirley to stop thinking of opening a cafe with me until she fix her brain man.. lol. cranky gal.. stop day dreaming, let's be practical k.. I know u r (crazyly) ambitious but we cant be jacks of all trade. We will only end up as masters of none. so well.. until ur brain is fixed, then we talk about it again yar ;)