If it was a mistake, it was a beautiful one.
Friday, July 18, 2008
「 dancing away Friday, July 18, 2008 」


hey hey.. yea. have been really bz lately. with crazy exams, I'm offered a one time biz opportunity at fireworks festival and of course.. in the mist of setting up another business. Really not easy, I thought after setting up one, second one will be easier. But it's not exactly the case.. the same fear, the same certainty is still there. We have great business concept, great partners, talented people and associates.. but kept questioning ourselves, is this a good location? what if people don't come? what if people don't like our food? what if we need the cashflow? on and on and on.. in a way, it a good thing.. acknowledging that your limitations (in a healthy way) make you cant help to realise how human you are, how you need to depend on and believe in something greater than reality. Yes, without God, all these wont have happened, I won't have the courage to come so far. Now, I really need to overcome the fears and the stress. I think im showing a lot of signs of being over stressed:
1) not paying attention to what people says to me
2) very forgetful (sometimes I cant even tell which is left or right hand.. yea.. tt bad)
3) response indifferently to difficult situation
4) unknowingly throw little tamtrum

oo.. this is not very good man.. from tan ya ting to lao hu ting. tsk tsk..

so many things to handle.. so many things i dont understand. so many frictions. so many unsatisfaction. maybe all these are part of growing up. maybe this is the season where my character will be greatly tested and moulded. maybe this is the beginning of something beyond my wildest dreams.

just want to note this down. happen to look at my notebook the other day. glanced at the cover of it and saw what I wrote at the bottom at the beginning of this year:

this is the year of promotion.

mixed feelings. a bit of aching bcos of many regrets. missed many chances of promotion.. yet on the other hand, a larger part of me is feeling all excited. I don't know how to explain this but I know, many things are coming my way.. so excited.. at the same time concern that I'll get too distracted and lose my way..


O.. saw the houses on sentosa on TV, i forgot the name of the property.. clove something one(if you know pls tell me).. it's super beautiful!! my dream home, it's like a semi detached and you have a backyard slope to the beautiful waters, with no gates and you can park your yatch right there!! it's like a mini park by the sea.. omygoshhhh... it's sooo beautiful you know. the sight of the place, even in my mind's eye makes my heart skips a beat..OK, now my next target is to get that place in 5years. then I can go fishing all I want! =D